Poems:
I used to write a lot of poetry when I was sad or anxious, I enjoyed writing… Now I have time and I just waste it doing other things. I only wrote when I was upset, i’m not writing anymore- so maybe it’s a good thing? Or maybe I should learn to write poetry when I’m happy. Here are 2 poems:
The world won’t stop turning.
I wish to feel a pause.
The feeling of being consumed with no escape.
It feels as if the Earth spins faster each day.
I wish to feel a pause.
I feel useless.
I have the desire and hope to make a change, yet I have no ambition.
I wish to feel a pause
So I can finally breathe
The breath I’ve been holding for so long
I’m choking
I’m blind, I can’t see my path anymore.
I’m unaware of my destination.
I wish to feel a pause.
But the World won’t stop turning
And neither will I.
Not for a second
Not for any soul.
So through this pain, I must not stand against myself
But with the strength from every part of my being I will stand with myself.
Nobody has the ability to change my life but me.
Dreams don’t become reality but,
I have the ability to change my mindset, to be ambitious and work towards my goals.
To make my life, the life I want.
I wish to feel a pause
Because,
The world won’t stop turning.
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Sometimes my memories are so clear
From the nights I played them in my head, smiling from ear to ear.
A happiness so pure I wanted to feel twice
Not knowing that later I’d have to pay the price.
Now feeling as if those memories will never leave.
Crying out in vain
HOW COULD I BE SO NAIVE
That happiness has turned into pain
The happiest memories began to drive me insane.
I’m not smiling anymore, tear after tear.
Sometimes my memories are so clear.