I am Tired

Some country boy is sorry for saying the N-Word, but I am tired of hearing about it.

If you don’t know the guy because I sure didn’t, Morgan Wallen is an American country singer (not surprising he said what he said to me) and now all of his music is being removed from iHeartRadio, Sirius XM, Pandora and CMT.

When I say I am tired about hearing this I am tired of people knowing the words and what they mean, the reasoning behind it, but still saying it but then only apologizing because now they are getting humiliated on social media.

If you are a grown adult and you are aware of a what a word means yet you still say it, you’re plain dumb.

When anyone apologizes for saying a racial slur, they always say the same thing “I’m sorry, I’m so embarrassed it was never okay” okay? so then you knew the implications behind it but still decided to say it.

While some may be thinking “Well thank god we live in Canada” you’re wrong, the difference between Canada and America is that the racism here tends to get slipped under the rug and ignored. Because the sad truth of it all it that there are racists literally everywhere.

I am lucky to have never really been discriminated against as a lighter skinned Latina, but I see the way people interact with my parents, especially my father. It all just makes me so angry to the point where you’re like welp that’s just racism for you, but it shouldn’t be that way.

Lots of people want to argue “Oh were so sensitive now” when is it really that? Oh, I’m sorry that your poor little brother can’t go around calling everyone slurs because he feels like it. It really isn’t about being sensitive it is about educating and holding people accountable for saying words that they should not be saying, and this goes beyond just racial slurs but even slurs to LGBTQ people!

The sad part of it all is I always hear about it in the media and I’ve never heard it used around me or I would’ve ringed someone’s ear off telling them off, but when it did it shocked me.

I was at work just a regular day and a man came in, he was an older guy in biker type clothing and before you ask, yes, he was white, but his partner wasn’t. I take the guys order and I ask him, Can I get your name for the order? And he says “B*aner” and I honestly could not hear the guy or understand so after asking him several times he spelled it out for me. I stood there and I was like what? Because the slur isn’t really used in Canada as much as it is in America to people who are Hispanic. After looking at it for 10 seconds I realized holy sh*t this guy thinks he’s so funny.

Well, what do you do in that situation? Like i’m on the clock I can’t exactly deck the guy in the face with a bottle vanilla syrup. So, I stand there and I’m like I don’t get the joke and he goes its funny right, and I respond no I don’t think it’s funny I’m literally Hispanic, that’s a slur. The man doesn’t understand and at this point I’m just standing there shaking because the whole situation was giving me anxiety.

The whole time I had the coldest eyes staring into him and he didn’t get it he just kept repeating it’s a funny joke, shocked at the level of stupidity at 9 in the morning I just wrote bean on his cup while I really wanted to write Cracker, but I would be the one to get in trouble not him.

Point is.

Stop thinking the slurs or derogatory terms are funny or okay and to get over it, because they aren’t and you are just another ignorant person walking on this planet.

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