Well we’re officially just over a week into February which means a week after dry January and I think I’m still recapping my adventure. I successfully completed dry January which I honestly really didn’t expect to after many failed tries but I was able to do it and I’m beginning to think that month off the sauce had a bigger impact than I had expected. 

For starters, I’m kinda grossed out by drinking right now. I’ve only drank 2 times since being in February, one of which was just an extremely casual few glasses of wine, but I have no need to reach for the bottle on the weekend anymore. Obviously this is all exciting and most would say “good for you” but I’m kinda a bit disappointed in a way. I miss the days where Friday meant fun for me and not just a night to reset and recharge, and I miss when Saturday’s meant bottomless mimosa brunch and now it just means hitting the gym or going for a walk. Where did my fun energy go? I miss the old me, I want her back. But why am I turned off drinking now. I think it’s the thought of it, how bad it is for you, what’s in it, all that. I felt excellent waking up hangover free and now writing this with a dull headache. I’m regretting last night’s choice to end the night with just 1 more glass of wine (it’s never just one more).

I didn’t think I changed this much after it was over, but now I’m seeing it did me more good than I imagined. And while I didn’t necessarily see any physical changes, my internal changes were mind boggling. Zero anxiety (or hangxiety) from the night before, no blurry nights, and no regrets on being too wild at the bar. And although it’s fun to have those nights, the anxiety that comes with it is just too much for me now. 

So now I’m kinda left in this odd state where I’m proud of myself for making these changes but kinda miss the old me and wondering if she’ll make an appearance anytime soon. If you did dry January did you go through these changes too? Or was it just right back to drinking with no problem?